#wanttogiveup

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Post workout selfie (after a nice shower) was a tough one today was so discouraged I knew I was a big girl but I didn’t realize how big until I pushed myself today to keep going I almost cried today and felt like idk if I want to continue this journey because I couldn’t do some exercises properly because I’m so big... and then I remembered to get to where I want to be it’s going to be hard work and dedication just cause I can’t to a proper heel touch or a perfect v sit right now without giving up doesn’t mean I won’t be able to do them a few days or weeks from now... I’m so discouraged on how today’s workout turned out but I guess it can only get better from here cause I’m not giving up #mylife #betterme #betterdays #igotthis #cantgiveupnow #keepmovingforward #keepgoing #motivationneeded #wanttogiveup
Ein Bild sagt mehr als tausend Worte! ~✍🏼❤️#wanttogiveup #draw #drawing #fabercastell #bleistiftzeichnung #judgeme
I’m sorry that I hurt myself I’m sorry that I hate myself I don’t want to I really don’t but the voices in my head tell me these things and I can’t help but believe them/do them. I’m just sorry I’m not the person everyone wanted me to be😕 Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wantodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #crying #overdose #givingup #goodbye
Little rant about to happen. So I hate people who always say I’m here for you but then when they ask how I am and I say not good they completely ignore me and just talk about what there problems are don’t get me wrong most of the time I say I’m ok when I’m not but if I actually say how I’m feeling I actually get ignored. People tell me that they’re there for me but then when I message them they ignore me or talk about themselves or send me snapchats of them crying and then when I ask what’s wrong and they say idk and when I don’t respond they keep sending me pictures until i say something back but when I go to them i just get a “oh” like I love helping people but don’t tell me your there for me just to ignore me or talk about yourself Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #crying #donetrying #wanttogiveup #overdose #givingup #goodbye
Still waiting on the spark to come back...but holding on and just taking life day by day even when it just keeps beating me down. 😢 #thisishard #wanttogiveup #keepgoing #weightgainsucks #emotionaleater
Those words hurt, for years I rejected myself and I believed I was worthless. Today I will look you in the eyes and say I’m stronger than you, I’m better than you in every way and I have earned respect. No one stands in my way anymore, your words mean nothing and you mean nothing to me - Verbal abuse destroys from within, the words keep biting and you feel worthless - not anymore, we will walk through this and Day by day we will build the confidence - MG
Manchmal Sitze ich einfach nur da und fange an zu weinen, weil mir alles zu viel wird... Es ist so traurig, wenn eigentliche wahre Freunde, nicht bemerken, dass mein Lächeln nur aufgesetzt ist. Auch ich kann mal zwischendurch lachen, es ist keine Maske, sondern ein Versuch wieder zu leben! ~❤️✍🏼 #draw #drawing #drawwhatyoufeel #fabercastell #broken #sad #maske #verstecken #lies #keinekraftmehrzukämpfen #wanttogiveup
Cần lắm ngay lúc này... Cần khóc cho vơi đầy... Cần đi đâu đó xa chốn đây...!!! #whitenight #wanttogiveup #tiredlife
Ok boys you really are meant to leave those on 🤦🏽‍♀️ starting to understand why I have to walk miles to retrieve them every evening!! Tonight we hacked out with another horse. Peg needed a reminded to leave the yard and then led the whole way! Unfortunately on the way back his stirrup got caught in a gate way and snapped it clean off, scaring the life out of him. Great!! Just what we need. 🙄 But the rest of the hack was 👌🏻 #hacking #sunnyevenings #flymask #persistencepaysoff #persistence #wanttogiveup #pegasusdiaries #pegasus #mane #horsemad #horseaddict #grey #greysallday #pony #horse #horses #horsesofinstagram #horses_of_instagram #horselove #horsegram #equestrian #equestrianblogger #equestriangirl #equestrianlifestyle
Who else’s parents don’t understand how you feel? My mom just thinks I’m being lazy and well my dad doesn’t care he has his new family so.. tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #crying #donetrying #overdose #givingup #goodbye
“She’s Strong But Shes Exhausted” 😔 #Tired #WantToGiveUp
I’ve noticed lately that you can see someone’s pain just by looking in there eyes. So when people look us in the eye can they not see our pain or can they but just don’t care?? Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #crying #donetrying #overdose #goodbye
It’s #hard and there are a lot of times you just #wanttogiveup But #havefaith I know these are just #words but they become #powerful if you #believe in them #wordstoliveby #wordstoponder #besafe #bestrong #behopeful #purgatorypizza #1ststreet #losangeles #1ststreetbridge #oneofthebest restaurants to hit before a show at #moroccanlounge
Better if I'm Gone.😭 #wanttogiveup
🇬🇧 not all sunsets are the same 🌟 🌟 🇫🇷 les couchers du soleil ne sont pas tous pareil 🌟 🌟 . . #mood #fts #whatever #howifeel #wontgiveup #wanttogiveup #sunset #coucherdesoleil #beirut #beyrouth #lebanon #liban #lavieestdure #noonesaidthiswouldbeeasy
Mir wurde gesagt " Dir kann es doch nicht schlecht gehen,du lächelst ja" Ja ich lächel, weil ich eines gelernt habe. Ich lasse mir davon nicht mein Leben ruinieren. Ich lasse mich davon nicht verändern. Und ich versuche irgendwie damit klarzukommen. Ich habe gelernt ,dass man es schaffen muss,irgendwie weiter zu kämpfen, weil Aufgeben keine Option ist. Es bringt also nichts, verbittert in der Ecke zu sitzen,weil es die Situation auch nicht ändert, es macht dich nur noch einsamer. Also bleibt stark 💫 #broken #Hurts #Hurtssogood #Pain #Gefühle #Cryeverynight #nightmare #Fighter #Fight #Staystrong #Sad #Depri #FakeLächeln #Sleepforever #WantToGiveUp #broke #Nobodycares #Nobodysees #Kaputt #leer #kalt #Maske #Illness #kraftlos #Nohope #Hopless #tired
Honestly all I’ve been thinking about the past 2 days is killing myself and the thoughts and urges are really strong yesterday the urges were so strong I honestly don’t think I’ve ever felt that way before. I think I even showed it a little bit cause my moms friend asked me if I was ok and her husband told me to smile and that I looked really depressed. I actually had to go into the bathroom to calm myself down because I started crying and just having a panic attack. Anyways I don’t know what’s gonna happen these urges are extremely powerful and if I go to my moms room and get the pills I need I will not be here anymore... ugh sorry for this rant of you made it to the bottom thank you❤️ Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #wothless #crying #overdose #anorexia #imdone #donetrying #nobodycares #givingup #goodbye
BBQ time 😯. Total panic with the food photos as my parents kept looking at me. ~ I had a pork belly slice, chicken kebab, and a minted lamb kabab and lots of salad and tomato ketchup :). ~ Calories:480 ~ Body image seriously low atm-people keep judging themselves on me and saying that I’m not allowed to be self conscious because I’m so skinny and I should post photos in bikinis and stuff but I just hate myself. Also everyone seems to be complaining about there periods and it’s really getting to me because I don’t get mine and idk why it just makes me feel like shit. Didn’t get to 1000 again today but tomorrow I’ve got my #pintparty so that should hopefully make me a feel a little better. ~ #fuckana #edrecovery #ihatethis #healthyfood #bloated #bodydistortion #bodydysmorphia #ihatethis #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #bbq #food #fearfood #porkbelly #salad #love #edawareness #eatingdissorder #eatingdissorderstruggles #struggling #wanttogiveup
I’m hanging out with my crush today and guess who is extremely depressed...this girl. I always get depressed when I’m going with friends or going to do something fun but when I’m home by myself with nothing to do I’m in a good mood like whyyy. Also it doesn’t get better through out the day even if I’m having fun it just stays😒 Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #crying #overdose #donetrying #anorexia #unhappy #fallingapart #givingup #goodbye
So there is this kid that I have a crush on and he’s amazing and everyone keeps saying he has a crush on me to and we are hanging out on Thursday but I’m scared to possibly date or even get really close to him because I’m scared on how he will react if I tell him/ he finds out about my depression,self harm etc. the thing is is he has cut himself before but he was one of those people were it was a one time thing ( I know that for sure) but he doesn’t even know I know and idk I’m just scared if he knows he won’t like me😕 Tags~#depression #depressed #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #crying #overdose #givingup #goodbye
I have to go back to the hospital today now they don’t think they’re gonna put me in to stay overnights and stuff like that I think I’m just gonna be doing some type of outpatient program so I’m kinda happy Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #overdose #crying #goodbye
I struggle with these thoughts everyday. A torrent of emotions flood my mind and sometimes I just want to drown in them. Because bopping my head in and out of the water can be so exhausting. You want to let go and give up, yet you keep surfacing gasping for air. . . #poetryofig #wordsmith #instapoet #poem #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetryisnotdead #creativewriting #prose #spilledink #artlixirspoken #poetrygram #poetsociety #igpoetry #poetsofig #wordswag #spokenword #spokenwordpoetry #slampoet #slampoetry #wanttogiveup #tiredofliving #mentalhealth #itsokaynottobeokay #shift2hope
These sentences pretty much sum up how I've felt for most of the day today. Nothing's really happend to make me feel so shit, it's actually been a good day, especially the afternoon as we took Isabelle out to Kaspas after school, for a treat for doing so well in her shows over the weekend. This evening my moods just gone right down hill. I'm questioning everything I've done recently and everything I'm planning on doing when it comes to raising awareness for Mental Health Issues. I've found myself thinking all sorts of things like 'Someone like me isn't going to make a blind bit of difference' 'People don't care that I want to raise awareness and educate people about Mental Health' 'Why would anyone listen to what I've got to say?!' 'I'm going to get nowhere with this' 'I'm a nobody' 'I'm going to end up embarrassing myself' 'I should give up!' I'm not saying all this for sympathy or attention or whatever, I'm just being really honest with how I'm really feeling tonight and what my thought process is like at this very moment. With these posts, it's my way of talking, it's my kind of therapy in a way. At some point in the future, I'd love to be able to turn my posts into a book of some sort but go into more depth. Other than @mr_scorch , no one actually bothers to ask me how I'm getting on with my projects or if I need any help with it, yet I pay an interest in everyone else's lives.... As soon as I do something for me or start something new, no one gives a shit. Am I seriously that boring and uninteresting?! Do people really have such little confidence in me to succeed?! It almost feels like that everyone WANTS me to fail. Maybe I'm just over tired and in need of a bloody good rest and a good sleep. I hope that's all it is. 😔😔😞😞
These sentences pretty much sum up how I've felt for most of the day today. Nothing's really happend to make me feel so shit, it's actually been a good day, especially the afternoon as we took Isabelle out to Kaspas after school, for a treat for doing so well in her shows over the weekend. This evening my moods just gone right down hill. I'm questioning everything I've done recently and everything I'm planning on doing when it comes to raising awareness for Mental Health Issues. I've found myself thinking all sorts of things like 'Someone like me isn't going to make a blind bit of difference' 'People don't care that I want to raise awareness and educate people about Mental Health' 'Why would anyone listen to what I've got to say?!' 'I'm going to get nowhere with this' 'I'm a nobody' 'I'm going to end up embarrassing myself' 'I should give up!' I'm not saying all this for sympathy or attention or whatever, I'm just being really honest with how I'm really feeling tonight and what my thought process is like at this very moment. With these posts, it's my way of talking, it's my kind of therapy in a way. At some point in the future, I'd love to be able to turn my posts into a book of some sort but go into more depth. Other than @mr_scorch , no one actually bothers to ask me how I'm getting on with my projects or if I need any help with it, yet I pay an interest in everyone else's lives.... As soon as I do something for me or start something new, no one gives a shit. Am I seriously that boring and uninteresting?! Do people really have such little confidence in me to succeed?! It almost feels like that everyone WANTS me to fail. Maybe I'm just over tired and in need of a bloody good rest and a good sleep. I hope that's all it is. 😔😔😞😞
Honestly I’m done I just wanna leave...nobody would care anyways I would be doing the world a favor Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #crying #blades #blood #overdose #givingup #goodbye
My friend is going swimming with me today and I’m excited but nervous I hate being in social places and I don’t like how I look in my bathing suit But it will be fun hanging out with her again Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #sad #sadness #selfharm #cutting #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #fat #ugly #worthless #overdose #blades #blood #givingup #goodbye
We all hit a #speedbump once in awhile.. but in life it's all how you handle it...#beyourownhero #life #annaliesjetrees #fitnessinstructor #gymjunkie #survivor #warrior #nevergiveup even when you #wanttogiveup DON'T🏹🏹🏹🏹🎯#greatworkout #bodyworks #lafitness #loveyourbody #gym #fitness #goals 🦅
Got horrible hips and fat thighs, why can't my body just be right. #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bodyimage #negativethoughts #wanttobeskinny #wanttogiveup
*I think im in emotional mind I feel like (in this mindset) is be better off without strong relationships ( attachments) as they seem to have triggers I find so hard to deal with. Someone very close to me triggered me around an hour and 20min ago and the emotions are as Intence as they where an hour and 20min ago.... I seem to be able to distract a bit but when I think about what to do next to be able to move on the emotions come back with such force and strength they are really overwhelming and trying to drive emotionally charged actions that I wouldn't do in wise mind ( ideal mindset) I have recently removed myself from one of my closest relationships and the urge is overwhelming to chuck this one in too as it feels like it dosnt matter what I do or how much I work on it that it will never be enough for some people and it makes me feel like I'm trying so hard for nothing. I know it's for me but what's life without people to share it with. It makes me feel so upset and unimportant when I try so hard to think about my actions and reactions and how they effect others and yet someone so close to me can just forget that I have BPD and seem ( acnolpging that it could be an assumption but it dosnt feel like it) to just act without thinking of me also. I'm not rereading this so sorry if it dosnt make sense.... #ranting #emotionalmind #nothappy #bpd #borderlineawareness #borderline #eupd #wanttogiveup #bpdproblems
To all the people who say suicide is selfish it’s not so stop saying it’s selfish because “you don’t think of anyone but yourself” ok I get that but when your suicidal you don’t think anyone cares about you you feel like everyone wants you dead so no us suicidal people are not thinking about ourselves Tags~#depressed #depression #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #overdose #worthless #fat #ugly #givingup #goodbye
Đúng là có tiếng mà ko có miếng... mà thật là cũng chả có cái tiếng mẹ gì luôn 😊 Tích đức đi Ly:) ko đc khẩu nghiệp:) . . . . . #wanttogiveup #dnncl #stressfulnight #vsco #vscocam #instapic #instadaily
Some days are harder than others 😞 #wanttogiveup
I’m so tired of my mom thinking that because it’s summer break I just wanna lay around all day. No I’m just depressed and I don’t want the world to see me Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttogiveup #worthless #fat #ugly #overdose #givingup #goodbye
"Cause I've got heaven in my veins but heaven doesn't numb the pain" #theamityaffliction #deppression #struggling #wanttogiveup
So tired of my family talking shit about me like I have feelings too but that doesn’t matter Tags~#depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #cutting #sad #sadness #wanttodie #wanttogiveup #crying #worthless #fat #ugly #overdose #givingup #goodbye
Ich kann nicht beschreiben, was in meinem Kopf so passiert.. Ich kann auch nicht beschreiben, was ich so fühle.... Aber eins weiß ich - Ich hab Angst. #Hopless #kraftlos #Nohope #Illness #hurts #Hurtssogood #Gefühle #Cryeverynight #nightmare #Fighter #Fight #Staystrong #Sad #Depri #FakeLächeln #Sleepforever #WantToGiveUp #broke #Nobodycares #Nobodysees #Kaputt #leer #kalt #Maske #Pain #
6 things you don’t know about chronic pain you don’t know, but should!!!! it’s #exhausting it causes #insomnia and #poorsleep it makes you #cranky #angry and #mean it’s make #concentration very difficult it kills your #selfesteem and #selfworth it causes #isolation from everyone #chonicallyfabulous #aliciasjourney #sick #vertigo #diverculitis #crohnsdisease #colitis #gastroparesis #migraine #ibs #seizures #chronicpain #lifelong #neverending #wanttogiveup #keeppushingforward #bekind
Let’s be honest. 😶 I am struggling. I am struggling with my workouts. I am struggling During my workouts. Heck I didn’t even workout this morning. 😭 I am struggling with healthier eating. I am struggling with my joy. I am wallowing in self pity. I am supposed to be heading to our company’s biggest event of the year but I am not, and. It. Sucks. I could keep struggling and getting knocked down OR I can suck it up and get UP and moving in a positive direction. Life let’s us down sometimes and well sometimes it’s quite often but you have the ailing to change how you accept things. I am over it!!!! Right now that changed! This afternoon I am going to do a workout and give it 100%! I am going to do better. I am not going to give up! I am in the business of helping others and I have struggled to do that. You either let life run you or you run your life AND it’s time I ran my own. I am so tired of taking what life throws at me and not fighting back. Is life knocking you down? Catching any curve balls? Starting a new workout today and need some accountability, wanna join me? The workout I’m starting is not available to Just anyone, want details shoot me a message or comment below! Tired of being tired? Let’s do this together!!! #strugglebus #tired #wanttogiveup
Not gonna lie...this has been the worst meet prep I could have imagined. Five workouts every week and four of them have sucked ass...every week...frustrated and on the verge of saying fuck it and binging on donuts for days. Seriously...so so close. 😩 then to top of shitty ass workouts, weighed in up 3lbs this week! Wtf?! I have been on freaking point with my same diet that has been perfect for me up to this point...3lbs!!! I'm writing it off to water retention for whatever reason. It's not like I don't drink 2 gallons of water a day or anything...just keep telling myself that the powerlifting gods are challenging me to see how much I can take before cracking, that it will pay off in 5 weeks. Good grief, it better pay off. Send me all your good powerlifting vibes everyone...I am in dire need. #powerlifting #ineeddonuts #stressed #gymlife #fitness #momswholift #powerliftingproblems #liftheavy #needmotivation #bingeeating #donutssolveeverything #wanttogiveup #fitover40 #needgoodvibes
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