Okay, so I'm going to ramble for a bit...stay with me.
Let me start by stating, I love these two little boys with my whole heart. I adore them and am completely obsessed. I am so thankful to have the opportunity to be their mama and there is absolutely nothing I would change about them or our journey through this life together.
But wow, is parenting hard. It can be overwhelming. It's chaotic, crazy, and most days there is at least one moment when I feel like screaming, pulling my hair out, and giving up; because how can I do it? How can I be enough? Provide enough? In those moments I get anxious, short of breathe, fight back tears, and feel like I must be nuts. I must be failing them. I certainly am failing me. The kids, the noise, the mess, the dog, the bills, the neverending housework, the job, the demands of life in general...It's such a delicate balancing act and it's all on me. Sure, they visit their dad's, but when they are with me we go 100% of the time. Sometimes I'm certain that I am drowning. There is no back up coming home. I can't tag team and tap out for a moment. I have a great support system in my family and friends, but it's not a partnership. I keep us busy as a coping mechanism. When we are on the go the mess is less, the noise and chaos is contained. Busyness curbs the boredom and the aloneness. It's a bandaid. On the other hand staying busy provides my children with experiences which I feel helps them to become better, and more well rounded humans.
Mom's, it's okay to talk about parenting being amazing (because it is), this right here is the good stuff. But we can also acknowledge the fact that it's not all roses and sunshine. And at times it is so damn hard.
The time we have with little ones is fleeting. And while always challenging, these times of chaos will be over before we know it. None of us have it all together. We are all just winging it. But know you're exactly what your kids need. I am exactly what my kids need. You are enough. I am enough. .
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