I need to talk about that last Ragnar Leg... My first two legs went pretty well to be honest - I was really pleased with keeping a fast pace (for me!) and running both legs solo in the dark night. 5.4 miles at 7:30pm, 6.6 miles at 4:20am... now I just had my longest, and hardest, leg to do. 8.4 miles with 1000ft of elevation, starting at 12:30pm. With @ianrunsldn
’s final legs being cancelled for safety reasons, I had company on this final run of our @ragnarrelayuk
2018 race. It should have been an incredible finish to the event. But instead, I had a complete and utter meltdown.
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The route was hard - the first 3 miles on trail and very up and down, the rest in front of the cliffs where we thought we’d have shelter. But we were exposed along the seafront and the heavy gales and sideways rain meant we were constantly fighting to move forwards and in a straight line. In fact, if you zoom on this photo you can see how my entire left side is dry from how strong the rain and wind was! My mind was tired, my body was tired, I was dizzy and my plantar fasciitis which had been getting worse over the weekend had me almost limping. @adventure.todd
ran back from where the rest of the team were waiting at the finish and told us we only had just over 1km to go. But I was struggling.
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I’ve never had this before in my life, but I started hyperventilating. Every breath I took was broken and sharp on the inhale. I felt like I was panicking. Embarrassed and feeling like I was slowing the others down I asked them to go, but @ianrunsldn
wouldn’t leave my side. He dragged my sorry ass to the finish line, where the rest of the team were patiently waiting.
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I can’t quite pin my reaction down to any one thing, but maybe I let the weekend get too much for me. I don’t think my brain stopped ticking the entire time, and maybe that was my body’s way of letting it all go. Who knows. All I know is that final leg really challenged me more than anything else - more than running at 4am along deserted cycle lanes in the pitch black with nothing but the faint flash of a sign every now and then to guide me. I’ll remember that feeling for a long time.