Confession: I was totally afraid to check the screen time stats on my iPhone.
I just...kind of didn’t want the confirmation that I probably spend “too much” time staring at that lil screen.
So I didn’t look for a while.
But the feeling kept creeping up that more days than not I was spending so much time staring at my phone, scrolling social media, looking for “answers” or just a distraction from whatever else was challenging me at the moment...and it was making me feel BAD.
Like I couldn’t finish a thought. Like there were never enough hours in the day to do what I wanted. Like I wanted MORE (of what? Not always sure...kind of #allthethings
I’ve done enough meditation/self-reflection work at this point to know that hoping to ignore something and have it go away is NOT the way to a) solve a problem b) find happiness, and so I decided to put everything I knew about meditation, habit-changing together with a dose of woo and some data to find a way to feel GOOD about my social media and screen time habits.
I checked that Screen Time app (not actually as shame-inducing as I imagined), and made myself a deal that I would leave my phone on airplane mode until after my meditation/journalling/manifest-y morning routine, that I would ask myself what my goal was when I opened my phone (“a few minutes to just scroll” is an ok answer when I’m HONEST w/ myself about it), and that I would put it down if I noticed myself starting to feel “bad” (anxious, unclear on my own goals or focus, inner mean girl voice getting loud, etc)...and that I would let it be an imperfect experiment in being mindful of what “worked,” aka felt good or not.
And honestly? It’s still an imperfect experiment, and will continue to be - because that’s what life itself is!
But I feel so much more in control of my habits now, and have had a lot less of those “how did I get here?!” moments where you can’t even remember when or why you opened an app!
That’s why I packaged what I’ve learned (and tested on myself) into a free mini-course for you - The Social Media Mindfulness Experiment! Content drops Monday, Oct 22nd, sign-up here: ainsliegreig.com/social-media-awareness-experiment/