Final Winner of this week #spilledinkonskin2018
challenge is @randomthoughtsofjaxx
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Scars and stars
Worn with pride
To remind me
There's a reason
I'm alive .
Most of my life I've battled my own mental health issues and addictions, also that of my parents and siblings. I'm in no way proud of the scars I have inflicted upon myself. I have seen people so ashamed of similar scars, but when I look at mine, I smile because I feel no shame, only strength. There was a time when I was so lost in addiction, alcoholism consumed my life. I knew that I couldn't do it myself, and I knew that I had to end it before it ended me. While my lawyer brilliantly lied defending my innocence, I stood up in a court of law interrupting him. I'll never forget the red faced look of that man, who thought he was speaking the truth. The question was asked, "if tested today, would you test clean?" I said, "No , I'd test positive for alcohol and cocaine." I looked the judge in the eyes, and asked for help to save my life. When I was in treatment I gained my stars, they're matching tattoos from a bond formed between me and my 3 new sisters. I lost my father this same year to alcoholism, while I was in treatment. My star sister Karen in 2011. By this time I had already lost my brother from a car accident, while under the influence in April 2002. Unfortunately this list continues for far too long. So I am proud, or should I say, I am grateful, that I was able to overcome it all. Grateful, to be alive every day, even if I have to fight to make it that way. .
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