Day 3 of #YogiThankfulness
asked us to talk about a challenging pose that we are thankful for. .
The first one that came into my mind is the handstand. I will save you all the technical difficulty, as I’m sure many of you have already had a taste of it. Instead I want to talk about why I am thankful for this particular asana (and there are many more but this one really jumps out to me), and why I continue on practicing handstand, no matter its elusiveness. .
Four years ago I was commuting an hour and half to work for a desk job, paying for $450 / month apartment that is shared with 3 roommates, and budgeting myself with anywhere between $25-30 / week for groceries. When the winter came around my biggest fear was that my car’s worn out tires would skid on snow / ice and swivel into an accident, as it almost did at one point while I was driving home after work through a snowstorm (luckily I hit the curb of the road, and didn’t injure no body including myself). More than the financial struggles I experienced, I lived with a heavy heart and bleak mindset that no matter how hard I tried and tried again, my best effort was simply not enough. .
Amongst many yoga poses that fascinated me, handstand by far was one of the most eye-catching. When on many occasions where I’d throw my arms wide up into the sky with a sense of hopelessness, handstand grounded me because I had to plant my hands onto the floor. I have never felt more connected to this amazing thing we call earth, than the moment I have surrendered myself to its gravity in times of vulnerability. Gravity is gravity. What goes up also comes down. We live these truths daily with our feet, but handstand made me REALLY feel it with my hands. And that moment of surrender gave me a glimpse of what my world could look like without ego, insecurity, and self-pity. Not to mention, the up-side-down rush reminded me of joy and rekindled me with my inner child. When I was going through a daily rut of mundane motions, it was handstand that necessitated a much needed disruption. It was handstand that helped me to change my perspective, first physically, and then mentally. Cont’d...