Anxiety... not a fun thing to talk about... not a fun thing to have.
It used to be alcohol that helped me through anxiety. Drink until it disappears. Then I’d wake up hungover, with more anxiety than I had the day before. Repeat. Pop a few anxiety/depression meds. Numb the pain. Drink some more.
I hated it! I hated numbing my feelings. Not only did I numb the lows, the meds also numbed the highs. I forgot what it was like to really FEEL! To feel it all- the good, the bad, the happy, the sad.
Anxiety doesn’t just go away. You have to work at it everyday. The beginning of 2018, I got off depression and anxiety meds. I started meditating, doing yoga. Feeling the feels, healing the wounds. Going through the dark, the shame, the guilt, the depression, to see the LIGHT! It’s there and it’s beautiful. AND IT’S WORTH IT!
Not saying meds are a bad thing, not saying coping with alcohol is a bad thing... they were there when I needed them. To get through some of the hardest times in my life. But, there’s a time when you realize they’re no longer needed. That you have to deal with your pain and stop numbing it.. because like me, it’ll keep showing it’s face until you face it head on.
I didn’t intend to get this deep, but an awesome conversation with Suzanne from @loveyogastudio
inspired me to share this.
I still have to face my anxiety... but instead of alcohol and meds... I use yoga and meditation as my tools. And the awesome thing about yoga and meditation... they make me stronger, they help me FEEL and HEAL, and they continue to work through me even when I’m off the mat. 🧘♀️🙏🏻🙌🏻