Okay! So lets go back in time again! This take was posted on february this year.
Since I write all my posts into a document before I truly release them I still know what I wrote about. My topic was root chakra, and how to heal it...yes, thats why all this red ^^ (never mind that I also loooove the color by itself...all shades of it! Can't get enough of it ^^)
Nevertheless, I see my root chakra status much clearer now...puh, and there's so much to work on! Mine is really blocked often. I'm an empath, so most of the time I'm not coping with my own feelings (which I should do...to heal) no...I'm challenged by the feelings of all the people around me. If you get close to me, I feel what you feel, I read you ^^ It's pretty hard to make a boundary, and close up, because if you're angry, I truly understand why, if you're jealous I know why, if you're sad I feel your hurt ... it seems to me heartless to simply overlook your feelings, probably because I know how it feels when not being understood. So I take in all these emotions around me, try to help to overcome them, by forgetting about me... ....
My nature is a happy one, Iove to laugh, dance, smile and make others happy, so when I have enough space for myself to heal myself, I radiate it. I love it to see you smile! I'm an addict to it! It makes me so happy. This is why I don't let you see me sad. I don't want to feel your sadness adding to mine ^^
On the other hand it is tremendously difficult for others to believe me when I tell about me being depressive, restless an full of anxiety.
I know...you only see me happy :) This fact drives me even more into lonelyness, because I see how missunderstood I am and some even tell me to be a lyiar and overdramatize...which truly hurts.
But it's okay I understand you ^^ I'll keep on working on my self, so one day I'm able to truly feel the happyness I radiate...deep in and never ending.
And for all of you, who feel alone, missunderstood and who are being neglected, told your feelings were not okay to exist or even told you're making up a show.
I telling you: There are so many of us! You're not alone, and ...(rest in the comment below)
Where your mind is, you will go. •
I’ve always believed this. For the past few months I’ve been in a very negative space. Many days, it’s all I can do to get out of bed and get to work. If I do wake up “happy”, I can make it to 3pm and my “happy” runs out. •
I was expressing frustration to a confidant when they told me that while it is okay to vent, does this energy help me work toward my goal? I realized that while I’ve recently made some serious financial and extracurricular goals, I’ve failed to look at my emotional and mental goals in a long while. •
In the coming days, I need to find a few hours to create a space where I can find my zen and redirect my focus to a healthier, better me.
Things to remember during an anxiety attack:
1. I KNOW that I am safe right now
2. I KNOW that this will fade away
3. I KNOW that this is a natural response
4. I KNOW that I am not in danger
5. I KNOW that a panic attack can’t hurt me
6. I KNOW that I am getting enough air
7. I KNOW that I am starting to relax
8. I KNOW that I feel calmer
9. I KNOW that I am going to be ok
10. I KNOW that God is with me
Next time you’re having an anxiety attack just keep reading these truths over and over and allow them to ease the anxiety right out of your troubled heart.
God’s got you, He’s bigger than your anxiety, you’re going to be ok ❤️
Still... a little piece of me will always care about you... #depression #emotional
Depression is something that many turn a blind eye to, make fun of, or brush off as “normal”. Though it may be normal to feel depressed, it’s always good to have some sort of support.
Poetry, art, and music are what I turn to, to let out bad feelings, instead of self harming. (I also read books about people who have been down the same road as me, so I don’t feel so alone.) I’ll admit, It doesn’t always work, and I still struggle with temptations. but it’s gotten a lot better. There is no cure for depression, I’ll never admit to that, because I know bad habits (as I’ve mentioned up above) like that always come back, and most times we can’t control them. I’ve never really fully came out with it. I was ashamed to let anybody know about the scars I’d left on my body, which I continue to hide, (out of fear of being questioned about it). And never would I make fun of somebody suffering depression/self harm. I seek to help people who struggle with it. That has come to be my main goal in life. If anyone needs emotional support, I’m always just a message away. So don’t be shy. (Well... I should choose a better choice of words, as I’m shy and quiet myself heh :p) (me just trying to brighten up the mood a bit) but honestly, It’s a hard road, and we can’t take the easy way out. Stay strong guys ❤️. I’m here for you :). (if this post has helped you in anyway, then my goal is complete).
The Holiday/Winter season is here and to me, it’s an avalanche of mixed emotions. I *LOVE* the holidays and the spirit it brings...but at the same time, I struggle the most during it. Whether it’s Seasonal Affected Disorder, or the fact that it’s around this time of year is when things usually go to hell for me, it’s tough to decide.
Due to recent events in my life, I’ve been struggling daily with debilitating anxiety and crushing depression. I try everything to keep my mind busy, but it’s constantly haunting me, waiting around every corner. I imagine—no, I *know* a lot people feel this same way. All I can say is you’re not alone.
To everyone out there, just know that I love and care about each and every one of you. All I ask is you be kind, caring, and loving towards others feeling this same way. Take care ❤️😔😌☮️💟
#holidayseason #december #seasonalaffectivedisorder #deppression #anxiety #love #yourenotalone #begoodtoyourself
“I wanna learn what David played, When he found himself alone, Let it ring, Let it ring, On every street and stage, Till the loneliest feel known“ @johnnyswim
| | You may think it doesn’t quite fit the photo to caption it with a song called Drunks, that talks about loneliness. However, I’ve found despite the outside shine, this time of year can be the hardest and loneliest of all. It can bring back heart breaking memories of the past or loved ones lost. It can make us all feel inadequate if we can’t gift, decorate, or do any of it right. There’s a crazy amount of unseen pressure and stress. Despite all of this, we still don’t have to do it all alone. If you do feel alone and are going through any of this, know you are loved. If you don’t feel it, let me know and I’ll make sure you know personally how much you’re cared for. Let’s have each other’s backs this time of year y’all. The magic of Christmas be in the community of love it creates #johnnyswim #musicheals #merrychristmas #yourenotalone #universalstudios #portraitmode #vsco #vscox #agameoftones #socality #community
“En la vida vas a conocer dos tipos de personas. Las primeras son las que te ayudarán y las segundas serán aquellas que solo te hagan llorar. Pero al final, le agradecerás a ambos tipos de personas”
Hace dos años que hago este proyecto con mi amiga @primswan01
porque el 12 de diciembre de 2016 no se olvida , una época en donde las diferentes adversidades nos hicieron más unidas que nunca, en donde no sabíamos qué hacer o en quien confiar, en donde supimos que era estar abajo y que nadie te ayudara, que tuvimos que ser nuestros propios héroes, en donde no sabíamos si hablar era lo correcto o no, por suerte llegaron personas que nos salvaron, que nos mostraron que todavía hay buenas personas en el mundo. Recuerden no están solos, por mas que parezca, hablen con quien sea de su confianza acerca de cómo se sienten y lo más importante: NO DEJEN QUE LOS COMENTARIOS DE LOS DEMÁS LOS AFECTEN!
Rojo: víctima de bullying verbal
Azul: auto lesión
Gris: apoyo al proyecto y a la gente que sufre esto •••••
#wedeservetoshine #proyectoarcoiris #yourenotalone