Learning to find what sparks my soul again after healing frpm addiction is quiet the process. I get in the fuck ot mode, I struggle to see the positive. I beat myself up. I cry and get discouraged. However I have yet to give up because some where inside my soul I know it will come. It is having the patients to do so. I want it now. Haha However life is not l8ke that. I also get so scared of the repeat of old mistakes and I allow fear to take over.
Then I being to sabatoge things in my life. I know we all struggle and feel like this. So I will not give up on finding myself and living a life I truly want.
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