Trusting myself and feeling like I’m enough is a constant work in progress for me.
Especially when I launch myself out of my comfort zone.
Yes, the confident, outspoken, strong, life coach/yogi/social work student blah blah blah.
Yes, me. .
I had this strange experience tonight where I REALLY felt this anxiety of not being enough.
I was attending a yoga class at work for the first time, usually I keep my practice seperate from the hustle and bustle of corporate life.
Right from the outset I lost control of my mind.
I wasn’t breathing.
I was sweating bullets.
I was nervous.
I was in some kinda state of panic.
Because I was freaking out that the people I work with, the people in the room knew I was a yoga teacher. They knew I’d just been in Bali for 5 weeks practicing yoga.
So what did I do?
Let my mind/ego spiral into the whole “YOU HAVE TO BE GOOD ENOUGH”, “you have to be the best yoga student ever”, “you have to do all the postures perfectly”, “if your shit they won’t let you teach here”
I was freaking out that I wasn’t enough.
Did anyone in the room actually even care?
No. Nope. Not at all.
Did I know all of this information at the time?
Yes. I could see what my mind was doing.
I could see what I was doing to myself.
I knew I was putting way too much unnecessary pressure on myself for no good reason.
I still struggled to control and overcome it though. .
But you know what? I’m fucking human. .
After all, this is what being out of your comfort zone and stepping up into your power asks of you, to work through this shit.
To up-level. To overcome limiting beliefs.
To do that, it has to bubble to the surface first. You have to face it head on.
I’m being vulnerable here because I think it’s so important.
We all have challenges and fears.
We all go through the motions.
We’re all in the arena together.
Most of all - today I really want you to know,
If you’re reading this
You are enough.
You are so enough.
You are so so so enough it isn’t even funny. .
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