I never really fit in.
I tried really hard, but I never felt like it just clicked. You know when you look around at everyone & it appears as if they just know what to do & it just comes so easy so them.
It really affected me throughout my entire life. I always kind of felt like I was on my own. Like when I've seen things that shouldn't be the way they are & yet they're just allowed to be. I couldn't just, fit in, & accept to ignore my burning feelings on the inside.
Everything I have I've had to work my ass off at & just when things were coming easy to me in bodybuilding, the universe wanted to teach me a lesson & injured my body. However it really was testing my emotional stability, my psychology, my willingness to learn, my willingness to let go of my plan, & just accept the lesson that I need to learn. What I've got from this is that you can look at the world in many different ways & ultimately decide how you want to live the rest of your life. You can look at everything from a scarcity type of mindset, where your perspective is competition & not enough to go around. Someone else's success takes away from yours & you have to victor over them.
Then there's this other perspective. This fruitful way of looking at things. Where we look at the future can we pick our true north & we head in that direction always, bc one thing that I've learned from the universe is that there will always be another opportunity.
There will always be a sunny day, there will always be a snowfall, there will always be a friendly face, there will always be a tragic moment, there will always be pain on the other side of love.
This world, realm, that we exist in, it's filled with infinite wonder, bc there is so much to go around and the universe is infinite. We've just scratched the surface of different dimensions & otherworldly planes. We're just awakening it's all the magical possibilities there are for us.
This is my age of #abundance
Where I love who I am, & who I am not, & what I'm doing, & what I cannot do, whether I'm alone or united w many, there is #abun #dance
#fuckit #igotthis #love #kindness #startuplife