White -- Like a blank canvas
White -- Like the flesh of a coconut
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We were clear of all preconceived notions when we began our journey here - but along the way, we get conditioned. Slowly, being accepting is a thing of the past and being judgmental becomes the way of life.
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I often wonder how I am the way I am - my parents must have brought me up well, or to my liking, if I dare say. I have been given freedom and confidence in my skin, though yes, when I was younger, things were different. My parents were strict and I was rebellious. I still am, I often think.
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I am bold. Sometimes too bold for my own good. I may even do silly things and I find myself second guessing my actions. I feel like as there are growing eyes on me, the pressure builds to set the right examples and portray myself in the right light. But I battle with that thought. Am I not human? What is right and wrong anyway?
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My inspiration for this post was the simple decision of what to wear for my dance video (my next post). My gorgeous sister
@rosh_dhillon styled me and although I am very comfortable in my skin, the thought of being on camera with so much skin showing really scared me. Its funny how I could do it on stage but the thought of it being recorded and posted on the internet was just overwhelming. What will the world think? Will I look sleazy and is it too much? A million questions - no joke.. Funnier still was the fact that these judgments were coming from within me. That's how deeply preconditioned we are.
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